So much has radically changed for me in the past year. As I near a couple anniversaries of sorts it makes me think... if flowers (that is what those white little blobs are in the picture) can grow around a parking stop, I can grow as well.
Last night I was on the phone with my Cousin G (who bless her heart called, but really late, I was exhausted and then we got off on a tangent) and I ruminated on all that went on and has happened over the last year, my Grandmother's dying, my Mom and Dad loosing their mothers, my jobs (one ending and one starting), promises that I made, last moments, friendships growing apart and how it has made me feel and grow in a way. I am going alot of this alone. I knew last summer that alot of my relationships would change and I am sad that I was not proven wrong. The lesson here is be careful what you wish for. That being said, while I am going through much of this alone, I am learning great strengths that I haven't had in a while.
If flowers can grow in the middle of concrete, I can grow and be a great person. I am disappointed that people who I valued aren't available to share in my new life but honestly, it is their loss.
I got an early birthday present from a friend out of town today. I adore her and thank her for her thought, her generosity, his sincere kindness. Even from out of town she finds a way, with a couple gift cards to let me know (and it is NOT the monetary value of the gift cards believe me, truthfully the greeting card alone would have been MORE THAN ENOUGH) she cares. The card.... means more really. The card I will treasure always and remember how she cares.
I don't have much in common with alot of people I used to anymore. It happens. People change, I have changed. For me I think it has been for the better.
So bloom on little flowers. Bloom on.
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