Hard ... no impossible to believe that its been five years since Cynthia passed away. When I was lighting the yortzite candle this morning I remembered every moment of how she loved my Herschel, how brave she was during Chemotherapy, how amazing a friend she was and today (like every day) I really miss her. I was truely blessed with her friendship, her kindnesses and her warmth. She made me know what it is to have really really good people around you and what effect that can have.

I hope that Michael is getting her tea... no...wait...I hope that she is being catered to with her favorite blackberry brandy, that she is singing up a storm and Heaven is having a really great party because she is there.

Alot changed five years ago for me and I hope that one day I can be just one millionth of the person that she was.