Its invaiding our dreams now. I don't know what the hell it is or why it is happening. I stayed completely away from all the anniversary broadcasts on tv yesterday. I didn't even really want to think about it. I have here is new york (the book) and really didn't want to think about it. Highly unsensitive of me I know...but this year I just wanted to mark it unceremoniously. At 10 I light a yortzite candle and moved on with my day.
Caught up on some cleaning, went out for a couple long walks, went and looked for a new carpet cleaner that wouldn't cost me 200 bucks. And then... this morning woke up after a waitress nightmare that I still haven't been able to shake. Usually I have them when I feel a sence of not enough accomplishment, or a lack of activity in my life, but this nightmare was about not having "something"... not enough silverware, not a clean enough table, not enough staff, not enough "something". And it wasn't at the normal restaurant, this was at another new location where I was a patron, but got up and started bussing the tables and refilling glasses.
I am not the only one waking up feeling off today either. I hope it isn't something in the air. I don't want to have a week filled with rife and angst. This is supposed to be a good week.
Off to do my deep Rosh Hashana clean (without the carpet cleaner since I never found one yesterday that make me happy).
I did though get my Halloween Costume taken care of.
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