I have completely obsessed about a picture that I know that I downloaded and can't find. It is driving me batty. But it made me really get the ticket to clue bus....my files are in chaos and I have to fix it and soon.

There is no order, no reason behind how I have stored many of my pictures that I have. Even the ones that I have taken myself. I fixed up some of what I have on the lap top, but its my cpu that is a mess. I have picasa loaded and still it really isn't helping all that much because there are hidden files (why would I do that?) that don't archive. GRRRR. I emailed my cousin about someone that is hyperlinking from his family's gallery site to a her myspace page and I got the strong sense that he was trying to sell me some art. Dude.... no thank you. If you could get me a dali for less than retail I might be interested, but until I have THAT kind of money... buying a print, not even a litho, doesn't interest me. Besides I can go to art.com and have them screen whatever I want onto canvas for goodness sake... they didn't give my Mom a deal on some art that she ordered from the gallery and I will never get over that. Seriously, isn't there something about a family discount in this family? Dad would give it to them on meat... it doesn't make up for the fact that I can't find the ONE picture that I have been looking for, for four days.

I might have to find something else to rastorbate because what I want to do isn't going to happen I fear. I found two other really great options though so it isn't a completely lost cause. But now I can't find what I am looking for and I am a girl possessed. And it isn't even tangible really what I am looking for, so the glass by the door trick ain't gunna work.

I did though find some evidence of some very weird behaviour about five years ago. Eek. Apparently I had a thing with goldfish crackers. Let me just leave it at that ok. Let your mind wander, I guarantee you will never actually consider what this picture entails. And it isn't dirty, just really weird. And keep in mind this all took place sitting outside the named partner of a respected law firm that I was in. Even more mysterious why that behaviour was encouraged and photographed. THAT was a fun law firm to work in. Good times.

I haven't watched tv outside of the two baseball games in almost four days. My house has been so quiet. I love it like this. My neighbors aren't around, although the guy across the hall is but he is frighteningly quiet. Sometimes I worry but he ain't no Michael & Cynthia so best to just not get too friendly. He is a really nice guy, but has really shleppy friends and an ex that keeps "just coming by to say hi". He is young bless his heart, but they need to not knock on my door looking for him.

OH! And I got out of staying both nights at this hotel for a work event today. I am so happy. One of the managers in my department asked if she could stay which brought such joy to my heart I couldn't believe it. Only "w" gets my aversion to hotels, although we aren't staying at crap hotels, I just don't need to stay at a place literally that I could walk to my house from in about a half hour or have a 6 dollar cab ride. Herschel will be much happier to have me home.