Freda was my great aunts name...

Which has nothing to do with anything other than I loved her. She was great.

I know that the election results really don't fully come to light for another two weeks (if the country is lucky) but I want to scream I am freaking out how red the electoral map is right now. Yikes. Very very nerve wracking. But nothing really matters now until the Supreme Court makes their decision and Rhenquist is out for the count probably (poor guy... hope he feels better).

Made a couple of really important self decisions today. Took some people that I thought were friends off a guest list/mailing for a big soiree. I thought that I would feel badly, but I really feel ok (actually much much more than ok) about it. I put them on there in the first place, I am only embarrassed that they now have recieved the save the date card and won't get an invitation... oopsie. So to you Mr. S. tooo bad. Don't lie to me and expect the golden fucking ticket.

Lets see. Got to clean out two dead fish from the Bro's fish tank. His fiance was suffiantly whigged about it (which I thought was funny actually, but I can understand...). I felt like such a "mom". And this is going to sound pathetic and really sad, but I was needed and that was nice. We kibbitzed about stuff and I think she is going to be fine. I told her that I was glad the fish went paygert on her watch because if they were on mine I probably would have taken them in clear baggies to the fish store and tried to replace them so he didn't know. And they always do.

I was going to sleep over at the Bros while dog sitting this week, tonite, but I just can't hack it. I am so exhausted and the covers at my house on my bed are such a cocoon and a safe haven. No one can hurt my feelings, take advantage of me or make me question myself here. I worry when I am not here lately.

My friend in Vancouver called me tonite. I have said this before and I will say it again....I really wish he lived here. I would totally have someone that "gets" everything about where I am coming from and be a broad shoulder to help me work through some things. I don't dwell on things when I talk to him. He is so bright and so foodie we would just have a great time. But his sister moved out here and had a really (and I mean really) bad experience with the area (roommates, boyfriends, people in general) that it really has kind of soured his idea of what there is here.

Met the meshuggena schnauzer lady that lives in the next complex this morning waiting in line to vote. She was a complete nut. But her dogs are kvell worthy when I see them peering over the balcony when I am walking Herschel on Sunday mornings. So I like her. She doesn't yell at them for barking at us either which I really like.

I have to write a goal related letter to someone and its throwing me for a loop. I don't take this challenge lightly. Its a fan letter of sorts but a call to action as well. I have a couple weeks to get it postmarked by the set date. I need to work on that. I will post what I come up with by the 20th of November. Because the more people that know about what you say you want to do the more people can make sure that it happens.