still on the organizing trek

I am getting to the point where the chaos is more settled down. I have found the time this week to do laundry and get my closet into some better order.

David Bowie was fantastic. There is NOTHING in the universe like seeing a show at a small venue, having the sound tweeked so well you could hear him breathing, being 20 feet from the guy at a couple points when you (nay I) dared to take my five foot one tuches into the fray of the tall people on the floor. I took some pictures, but didn't have the stones to actually lift my camera above my head and click some when I was really close (too risky). His show was a 2 and a half hour mix of old and new, it was as perfect as I could have imagined. I think even my Mom may have been a little jealous that we were there.

I am about 3 weeks away from getting my hair cut. I can't take it anymore. 3 more weeks should just about have me at the length I need to donate it and still keep me from going insane.

I went to a Young Hadassah meeting last night. So I was intreged. I went to the Hadassah website. I don't consider myself a Zionist. I believe in the State of Israel, I believe that Jewish values are important, but I don't believe that the State of Israel in and of itself is prophetic and non-negotiable. I think peace can be gained by finding simalar joys. I think that peace won't be found by building a wall... (it didn't work in Berlin, think about that...)( but its politics and this blog isn't about politics or my stance on Israel) I considered joining actually last night, in an effort to get involved with Jewish women my age in a non-threatening environment (which it was) but I don't neccessarily believe I want to be involved in an organization whose values are not close to mine. I will have to go to another meeting (they said that there is another one sometime in February for possible new members) and ask a couple questions. I belive very much in some of the programs that I was looking through and at on the website (I am not linking it because honestly I am not really ready to put that kind of possible traffic through here... it isn't hard to find... haddassah dot org) and they are good charitable programs, I just don't believe in the Zionist side.


But.

That being said. I walked into a room full of women that I didn't know. People that I didn't know. I wouldn't have done that a year ago, hell, I would not have done that a month ago. I am proud of myself for going. I didn't meet anyone that I exchanged numbers with and agreed to meet later for interesting conversation (I was though the only unmarried woman in the room...) but I went and talked to people I didn't know previously. And that is the bravest thing I have done in a very very long time.